u kNOw .... i neVa realLy taLk aBouT ceRtaiN ThiNGS oR aTLEasT tRy nOt tO tOucH oN sTufF ... iTs noT so mucH THaT i tRy i jusT teNd tO PreFer figHtiNg bY mYSeLf oR keEpiNg iT tO mYseLf ...
buT i feEl i neEd tO saY soMeThiNg aND maKE mY poiNt whiLe i'M aT iT .... Me aNd mY BiOLogiCaL MoM iS goiN aT iT aNd i haVeNt sPoKe tO heR iN a weEk ND a haLf oR sO i tHiNk .... i haVeNt tRieD reaChiN ouT tO heR aND sHE haSnT tO Me ... i kiNda feEl liKe beiN liKe fK iT aNd maKe ThiNgs betTer witH heR buT The laSt weEkeND i sPeNt w/ HeR realLy cHaNgeD ouR ReLaTioNshiP i feEl liKe aNd i'M beiN fauLteD foR heR deCisIoNs sHe maKe iN wHicH i keEp tO mYseLf ... iT's NuThiN NeW tO mY daD ThO... mY poU PoU aND i aReNt sPeaKiNg eiTheR aND iT huRts BaD ... iT aLsOS hurTs cuZ i loVe mY faM buT liKE oTheR faMs ... iT's dYsfuNcTioNaL aNd fulL oF dRaMa ... buT i haVe doNe a LoT ... soMetiMEs tO coVeR mY hurT oN puRpoSe nD welL ... soMetiMEs NOt oN puRpoSe ... TheE oNlY perSOn ThaT kNowS mE besT kNow a LoT oF waT i haVE wenT THrU aND kNowS aBouT mY miXeD eMoTioNs toWarD a LoT oF siTuaTioNs ... whN i weNt tHru tHiNgs oVa heRe i kiNda feLt i haD aNoTha faMiLy i caN turN tO aND nOw i feEl i dNt eVeN haVe ThaT .. aND The tRutH iS ....//...////..///.... i DoN'T !!!!!!!! [ sPeaKiNg oF mY biO faM] nD whN ThaT caNceLS iT ouT iTs kiNda a wRaP ... ThaT's whN Ya besT frieNd coMe tO pLaY .... i'M tRyNA keEp mY teaRs iN cuZ i aiNt beEn cRyiN beFo ... y cRy nOW ???!!!! i dnT eVeN haVe mY besT frieNd tO turN tO ... welL ... eXcuSe ME A besT fRieNd tO turN tO ... i aLwaYS saY i DNt neEd nObodY aND i sTilL saY daT buT iTS aLwaYS THaT 1 PeRsoN ... uR meDiciNe .... uR rigHt haNd maN .. welL gurL iN mY siTcH ... The saLt tO yO pePpa ... Ya kNOw "sHaKe n BaKe" [ oLd iNsiDeR] aND tHeE oNlY oNe ThaT couLD tRuLy b THere fOr mE iN The waY i neEd hEr tO aNd caN fulLy uNdeRsTaNd ... iS NIcHeLe ... i DnT haVe THaT aNyMorE ... nD Ya kNow ThaTs soMeThiN i haVe tO deaL witH ... i'Ve haD nO cHoiCE aCtualLy ... i waS fOrcEd tO leT iT gO ... aND iN reaLiTy aNyThiNg ... reGaRdLEsS oF waT iT iS tHaT's fORceD iS NeVeR goOD iN THe loNg ruN .... buT iTs koOh i caN deaL ... i'Ve beEn ThrU sOMe tHINgs... Nd mY fRieNdSHiP wiTh heR iS soMeThiNg ThaT i haVe tO cLiMb oVeR oR aTleaSt oN toP tO surViVe .... oTheRwiSe i wilL dRowN ... N e waYS ... i tRy nOt tO bRiNg uP sHyt i gO tHru buT soMeTiMes wRiTiNg iT oUt heLps mE tO FacE My feaRs, mY paSt , tHe iSsuES i gO tHru aNd sO oN ....
N e oNe wHO eVa reaDs ThiS ... a fRieNdsHiP IS soMEThiN u sHouLd ChaRiSh aND neVa taKe fOR gRaNteD ... neVa leT ThaT beSt FrieNd gO ... tiMes geT roucH aND u aLwaYS haVe THaT soMeoNe tO liFt u uP aND tO gRaB u bY tHe cHiN aNd liFt Ya heaD uP fOR u JusT fOr a LiL eXtRa eNcouRaGeMeNt ... iF u fiGhtiN wiT THaT fRieNd leT gO oF uR eGo aND aNd aDmiT Ya wRoNgs ... TaLk tHInGS ouT aNd leT tHeM kNOw THaT nO matTa waT u wiLL aLwaYS bE tHeRe aND wilL neVa leaVE/ woNt Go NO wheRe ....THeY sHouLD feEl ThE saME ... cUz u nEVa kNOw whN u wiLl neEd THaT bFF nexT .... Nd eVeN tHn wHn nO oNe haS sTePpeD uP yeT.... iT's NeVa a biG coNTeMpLaTioN raTheR tO coMe tO TheiR ResCue oR nOt .... iT's waTs ReaL ...
pPL hoLd oN tO uR FrieNdsHiPS ... dNt ruN fRoM TheM whN iT geTs touGh THaTs y a FrieNdshiP coNsist oF 2 oR morE peRsoNs sO THaT uR nOt iN iT aLoNe ... iT's NuThiN liKE feELiN hOw i dO riiTe nOw ...
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i'M goOd ThO !!!!!! i Got iT !!!!!
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